Glowing Bright Penguins

So lately I’ve decided I should start writing down ideas I get for short films or a internet series i really want to make. I want to make these things for two reason above all.

Number one reason is experience. My chosen career path is not an easy one, I wanna become a camera man for Films, Tv or anything I can really get, and for this im going to need practice and skills, even if I just want to get professional experience. As well as taking Media, Film and Photography I think I should start applying the things ive learned to my own little projects that I will Write/Direct/Film.

Number two reason is more of just a dream. While I know the internet is a great place to share things with friends, I want to try and create short films to be like TomSka, FreddieW etc. and just try to make a career out of YouTube or at least become popular.

So that’s basically where the title of this Blog come from ‘I’m no writer but I’ll have a go’ Because if I don’t try to do something then I’m not going to go anywhere and I’m going to end up in this bedroom forever… well if the parents don’t kick me out first.

Hopefully one short film or episode will be made quite soon! and I don’t want to reveal anything on here but keep an eye out if you really care! :D

Peace out!

When I was in year 11 (only like last year) I was invited to join the band as they needed a bassist, only problem was I didn’t have a bass, i didn’t know how to play bass and I’m still pretty amateur on it now. But that’s not the point. Since then the band has split up and each person has gone there separate ways to achieve different things, some went on to start a new band, another went to pursue his relationship and one of them didn’t exactly work out.

But i suppose i joined primarily because i wanted to try and be like on of my favourite bands, listening to them now while i write this brought back those memories that i kind of miss. We didn’t exactly achieve anything apart from a few covers and never got any further than the practise room but it was still fun, even if it went nowhere i enjoyed hanging out with friends and trying to produce something. 

Part of me would want to try and reform the band even though i know some members would not want to  just because of how much i love music but the other part of me knows i should really concentrate on things that i mainly want to pursue as a career like film and production, not to mention finding a part time job etc.

One thing that it made me realise is that i want to get somewhere in life, i want to be known, i wouldn’t be fussed if it was for music, photography or film production but i want to be known for something, I want something I can put my name to, and as much of an absurd dream that is, it is my dream and what I want to accomplish.

Hey, I could always make a music video, that seems to cover all bases.

Peace out.

I believe that every image has a story behind it which can be fiction, non fiction or a combination of both! the story can be totally made up from the picture giving it new meaning or the story can be about the picture (When? Where? How? etc.) Today I wanted to try and blog something alongside a totally unedited picture which I have taken from one of my previous ventures and hopefully not published on here (I’ve uploaded quite a few though so not sure if it will be a copied image) and hopefully this can grow into a thing which i can usually do. :)

So without further adieu:

Yes, i have chosen this picture of my friend Dan (http://suchacommonname.tumblr.com/) Try not to stare into his eyes, He will see into your soul!

Now hear me out before thinking “oh thats a bad photo etc” cause it does have some meaning and a story to tell! I never said that this blog was going to be arty or photogenic, i was just saying about stories :)

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So I don’t blog very often but today I thought I would start since ive got the next four weeks of college off!

Now into business, if you know me personally you’ll know that im a pretty relaxed guy and things don’t get to me to often, but today Ive felt the worst I have done in a long time.

My story begins around 12 o’clock today, an hour before my media exam and typically I was feeling pretty good about it, as it is with all exams the feeling of worry and excitement was rushing through me simultaneously. I tend not to think much about exams as there has never been an exam that I have been faced with and been speachless, especially not my film exam yesterday which was said to be very hard…. so typically I was feeling rather cocky in my mind and felt that I was gunna do well.

I was wrong.

When we were given the clip and watched it through It was like a slap in the face, suddenly all the worry I’d been keeping at bay bursted through and all I could think about was failing and why my belt was so tight around my waist and poking me in the stomach, I spose that feeling of failing is still with me now, but I managed to get something written down best I could and now its just a waiting game until august.

But the real kick in the teeth was when I left and my heart dropped as I heard eveyone saying how much they enjoyed it, was the struggle actually my fault?

I suppose the title of this blog is actually kind of wrong, I dont know if ive failed ive just got to stay positive and hope for the best.

If I havn’t bored you already by my exam story and you are still reading this then there is a point… If anything today ive learned that failure is just a part of life, as the song goes “i get knocked down and I get up again” I’ve just got to stay positive and keep trying and never give up because its not the end of the world, it’s just a set back that I know I will overcome. So as of now I am done with my moaning and self pity, I will look to the future for better and brighter times, I will remember this lesson and carry on through.

Soooo…. yeah thats pretty much it….

Okay so lately the parents have been trying to get me to find a job but I am a pretty ‘unmotivated” person…this is 3 reasons why I find it so hard.

1. By “unmotivated” I mean I am lazy, I find it hard to do the simplest of tasks and most the time just cannot be botherd at all unless it works or benefits me, sadly this means that if I dont do anything it is the first thing to blame and also makes me come across as selfish.

2. For some reason if my parents tell me to do something I feel that it turns into some kind of work and my inner teenager just tells me to rebel, where as if my parents dont say anything and I suddenly remember that I should do something I will do it straight away… My parents havnt seem to grasp this concept and still moan at me to do things.

3. I tend to forget to do everything. Sware to god I have a terrible short term memory, this involves leisure and work… Someone will tell me something and before ive even had time to get to the location to do it, ive forgotten and just carry on with the usual routine, this could be down to me not listening or my terrible ability to not be able to multitask.

To be honest these 3 things are what stop me from searching and applying for jobs, I forget to do it so my parents tell me making me not want to do it and increasing my laziness… The annoying part is that I dont know how to change it, I want to be creative, take amazing photos, film amazing things but I just cant be bothered to get out my own way…im not quite sure how to change this or even where to start but I will try. But then again this could all be bullshit and im talking out my ass cause im tired. Goodtimes.